What do I do?
So I already wrote in about a recounter with my first ever crush and how the emotions came back after seeing him after a long long long time hi my name is Jackie and ima freshman in college you can say my name . Let me give you a little back round. My friends like to call me phsychic. The reason is because when my cousin was pregnant and was about to receive the news of the gender I had said I dreamt a girl. she went in they said it was a boy but the next time she went they said they had gotten it wrong and it was a girl. Then I dreamt my other cousin was pregnant and the next day they announced it. Needless to say I dream about what is going to happen, who's pregnant and sometimes talk with my dead relatives in dreams? its actually a small gift because my dads side of the family can see the dead like my dads sisters, he can see them and feel them scary! I'll do some scary stories here dont worry. Well I have an update I had a dream that he was kissing this girl and I knew from then he had a gf from that dream. I decided to not approach him cuz duh he has a gf respect. Well, he texted me saying he needed help with the hmwk. And at the time I thought god heard my prayer because I needed help too and if he didn't help I probably would have pulled an all nighter. The teacher said we could work with it with partners that's why he texted. Well this is where things get rough.... we start doing the homework in google docs but I hear my phone notifications again and again. we start having conversations about the hmwk but then he progresses to say he was in ucla but transferred to this school because he still doesn't want to know what to do. I respond because I don't want to be rude. But then he talks and talks about his future and stuff.... I feel in my head uncomfortable because again he has a gf. Well we finish homework at 2am and something that caught me off guard was him saying and I quote "K thx goodnight".ummmmm.... I don't respond to that because that's weird for me get it if he texted that to his gf but me im just a stranger.midn you ive only known him from 3-4 grade A good thanks would have been enough because we both worked on it but goodnight seems a little idk too intimate. Next day this is where I think I messed up. so we needed a blue book for the test. I grab 2 because the teacher said we would need 2 for the semester. but then I text him saying if he wanted one.. I know I know but I just wanted to say like thanks because he lives a bit far from the school so picking up a blue book he might be late. So I did and he said yes pls. He comes to class me listening to music don't notice him until he is standing in front of my desk and says hi, I give him the book and I just plug my earbuds in not acknowledging him because I dont want to create this awkward moment. I thought that it was over after that. wellll..... let's just say I was walking home when I get a text and he says "good thing we studied late it's easier to remember" I dont know if I am overthinking but why is he texting me so much. I responded and he left it on seen but. I just wanted to get the hmwk done not intervene with his life or gf I am not that type of person. But I can see where I may have messed it up. Again I never text him only did probably 2 times for homework but that's it, never about "how have you been" because boundaries. oh and the reason I knew he had a gf is because he has a highlight of her on his insta. but what I am asking is what do I do if it happens again where he tries to text more than is respectable. Ive never had a bf but I feel like if I did him texting me the way he did if I was the gf I would have been very mad and betrayed. I feel sorry for the gf because who is is he texting that she doesn't know about. or am I being paranoid? Again I love your podcast!! Im writing this at 4am because I cant stop thinking about the situation.
Your faith journey
Hi ladies, I’ve listened to every single one of your episodes, and I’ve noticed you don’t share about your faith as much as you used to. I loved hearing about the days you were in worship band together. I feel many of the questions you get could be answered with biblical truth, however, you don’t seem to be using that point of reference. I’d love to hear more about your faith journey and if y’all are still worshiping together.
How can I get over my fear of pursuing my dream?
Hello Ladies, My name is Jackie I am a freshman in college and Im going to be 2o this year! yes the big two zero! if you have seen that ticktock you'll know the reference. Yes I am a little older for being a freshman in college but I was born in December so I was always the oldest in my grade. Im going off topic but I just want advice from both of you guys. I know Ashley you struggled with finding a career choice but I don't know. I know what I want to do. I want to become a singer/songwriter/music producer. I've always loved music ever since I could talk I was singing. But I am afraid to say the least because One I don't know how to produce music two I cant play any instruments and three I don't know any which could help me with my goal like producing music for me. I live In Orange County California. A peer of mine 1 year older than me related music his last year of highchool and is now charting in Japan and now has over 2million streams on his Spotify and going on tour. I cant help but feel like being left behind because ever since I was younger I was always told to never opinion on things, never take risks even like crossing the street. So now I feel helpless because I know music and singing is what I want to do for the rest of my life. But how can I find people to help me make music so I can progress and how can I get into the music industry. There are so many people that are much more talented ad creative I feel like my music wouldn't be up to its potential as others. Also Me and my fiends are starting a podcasts as well, we were inspired by you Ladies it's called Cheers to that if the community wants to support us. We want to talk about growing up as we enter our 20's and to grow with us. we have instagram and ticktock they are both called @Officialcheerstothatpod. Again thank you if you read this I really need it if you don't thank you for making this space feel like my personal diary.